THE COW, THE MILK AND THE CHEESE

It’s been quite a while since my last article in this blog which was posted on 2nd. July 2011. All these while, my wife and I have been wondering “what actually happened”, “what actually is”, or “what wrongs have we done”? We wonder what did really happen in our life ever since we were apart. There are times when I feel that it is about time for me to forget everything, anything and whatever in between. Maybe “abah” would be better off rather than to be remembered by someone who have forgotten even to say it, but “mama” will be always be haunting each and everyone who was “carried” around and being part of mama’s life for nine months, no doubt about it.

We were happy in this residence, having been together for more than 25 years. We enjoy our life with our tour to Paris and Beijing and to all the states in the Peninsula, the least. We remember every memorable moment during those years, and every now and then, we fulfilled every requests and needs, being able to attend college and university and later graduated. But what was left for us? Only frustrations and sometime regrets, regretted to have done so much but not being repaid accordingly, not with money but with love and respect. We keep forgetting the source of our success, no matter how small it is, and to those who doesn’t care, that sacrifice is not worth at all. Someone else is now enjoying reaping the fruits of labor out of other’s blood, sweat and tears. It’s the cow’s hard earned milk, but the name goes to the “cheese”! It is also regretted that one could accept these “cheese” out of no where, just by claiming it with proud and arrogant, forgetting from where it really came from. It’s very unfortunate now that the “milk” is already a “cheese” and will not change back to “milk”.

A matured, responsible person would prefer to ask where we stand in this picture, and will not take what ever opportunity there is, look for the right answers and make a fair and honest decision that will not hurt others, will not take words blindly, grateful to Allah and belief in “Divine Will and Decree”.

That’s it. Stop or pause? It depends.

I remembered in my last issue, I wrote that I would continue writing in this blog if I feel worthwhile doing it. Ever since my last article, my wife and I found that our blog was also visited by readers from Taiwan, Indonesia, Pakistan, Australia, India, and the United States, to name a few. Thanks to all, at least there’s someone who is willing to read it and understood our feelings. It’s something that we do not expect, as most of our articles were written in Malay and we wonder who the readers are. I do write in English, may not as good as anyone else, including a 20-series memoir entitled “A picture that says a thousand words”. Anyway, we are happy for your participation.

My wife, who owns this blog, suggested to me to continue writing to accommodate our readers. Staying at home doing chores that continue to pile up daily, left me with no time to sit and recollect all what I could write. Anyway, she’s right, and it’s good for me to do something for our readers. We hope our readers would welcome whatever we wrote, both in Malay and English, would give comments for us to evaluate our articles. Thank you.

This article was originally prepared on 20.11.2011 – to remember a good set of numbers!!